Friday, October 12, 2018

OctPoWriMo 2018 Day 11: Sub-Zero

I fell off the bandwagon. Badly. Internet outage, work stress, physically not well - no spoons left, down to knives only, and I was pretty much about to give up altogether because I just couldn't catch up.

I gave it one last shot to see if I could write anything today, after days of complete brain-blank. It came out as an absolutely lousy cascade. Maybe I'll try to catch up on the missing week in the next few days, if I can. I am also being reminded to try and be kind to me, when I'm totally out of spoons and depressed so p'raps I might not get around to all of them (and I feel guilty about even THAT.)


DAY 11: SUB-ZERO

i’m an ocean no i’m a lake no not a lake a puddle
i’m a puddle in a rut muddy puddle muddy rut
i vaporize i rise i dry i vanish and the sun eats me

i have no substance no form i beat invisible fists
against apathetic air i have no voice i am a hole in the world
(i’m an ocean no i’m a lake no not a lake a puddle)

i condense i freeze i fall i am contained in a drop of rain
no i am split scattered i am rain falling down into the cracks
i’m a puddle in a rut muddy puddle muddy rut

i am rain i am pieces of rain i fall into the cracks of my life i disappear
(below ground it’s sub-zero hell froze me over)
i vaporize i rise i dry i vanish and the sun

eats

me

2 comments:

ms_lili said...

really captures what you describe is going on in your world right now. hoping the rains come and the sun makes a rainbow with you

Shuku said...

Thank you so much Jade! I hope so too.