Except I didn't. Because things, as always, took a left fork into the middle of Unexpected Territory, and the piece came out nothing like what I envisioned. I didn't want to write it, I swear, but one thing I've learned (resignedly) is that my brain will churn out what it churns out and I don't have a say in the matter.
Here goes nothing.
DAY 4: THREE SPECIES OF CAGED EXOTIC ANIMAL
1.
Filipino Maid in Kuala Lumpur
ma’am is
in a bad mood tonight
she come
home start shouting
CORA WHY
YOU PUT MY BAG THERE
ARE YOU
STUPID
at dinner
she get mad again
throw the
plate on the table
CORA THIS
IS SO SALTY HOW TO EAT
HOW MANY
TIMES I TOLD YOU
DON’T PUT
SO MUCH SALT
YOU
STUPID IS IT
GO CLEAN
UP THE MESS
YOU AH SO
USELESS ONE
i think
of my children in manila
they ask nay
when you coming home
i say i don’t
know nak
ma’am has
my passport
she say she
keep so i cannot run away
she keep
my money too
malaysia
is very far from manila
i wish i
could swim
so far
2.
Thai Bride in Belgium
She
loved him. She wanted a better life.
Both
these things are not mutually exclusive.
Dating
website. Six months.
He
said he loved her. That’s all she needed.
She
loved him. She wore long sleeves and long skirts
To
hide the marks he left after his jealous rages.
She
told herself it’s ok, it’s ok as he
Checked
her phone every night
For
signs of infidelity. Vetted her emails.
Built
her a locked cage called Marriage.
Five
years and she could divorce him if she chose
But
it’s only two this June.
They
can deport her now if she leaves.
He
says he loves her. She believes him still
Makes
excuses for his abuse.
She
can’t go back to Thailand. She won’t go back.
Everything
has its price. She’ll pay hers
In
makeup carefully masking bruises and
black eyes
Clothes
that cover her skin
And
silence.
3.
Exotic Dancer in Florida
Money
for college.That’s what I think about.
Money, as I
pluck this sequinned hell off my body
Money, as I
flash my tits to dead-eyed dicks with beers in their hand and tents in their
pants
Money, as I gyrate
my hips and think of anything else but this damn claustrophobic club and these
hideous lights and this bloody pole and this zoo of eyes watching like I’m some
damn species of pussy in a cage
It’s
ok on the best of days, downright degrading on the worst but hell –
It
pays the bills.
Sure,
there are other jobs. Better ones with less shitty bosses even.
They
don’t pay half as well as one good night here though.
What
a joke innit – being tied to a pole by debt.
I’d
laugh but it’s true.
Anyway,
Annie’s done and I’m up next.
Time
to go make money.
2 comments:
Objects of trafficking if there ever was; caged species. The visa system that allows humans to essentially be caged needs to be revamped! I appreciate your political awareness.
Wow, these actually shook me! Poignant and so real!
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